Nightjohn

Prompt: How did the reading make you feel? Why?
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          Well... to answer the prompt. I honestly must say that I feel like throwing up. Flesh wounds, not having anymore toes, salt, nudity, being fed to dogs, having your corpse hang from a tree so the birds can eat your body. All those things make me want to throw up, and I did. During class I threw up a bit in my mouth when John's toe came off. If you think that I'm joking, I'm not. If you know me, you think I'm probably laughing because I think it's funny. No... I'm laughing because my voice would crack if I spoke. I don't know what I felt in that exact moment, so I thought that, "wanting to throw up" is the best description for my feelings.

          There were two moments in that book that made me actually throw up. One, being the toes and two, dogs and birds. Right when I read John's toe coming clean off, I wiggled my toes. I thought to myself, "What would it be like without your big toe?" I threw up. I was also thinking of taking my shoe off and rub my big toe to confirm that it's actually there. But really, think about it. Your toe has just been cut off by a chisel... It's gone, forever. What would it feel like? All that blood rushing out, and your bone being cut off. It's... no...

          Dogs and birds. You see, being eaten alive is probably one of my life's greatest fears, if not, it's my life's greatest fear. I would not like to see someone tear off my skin and swallow my muscles. If I'm conscious and I could see my bones and my flesh, I would pass out, I would be even more afraid if I don't pass out. I'm about to cry. I could just see myself laying down, face up while dogs or something are eating you alive. I was scared because I was imagining such things. Terrified.